Mom, Amanda Bernstein and I celebrated the 20th anniversary of the release of Sinéad O’Connor’s album I Do Not Want What I Haven’t Got. We shaved our heads in protest of the Church’s continued silence against child sexual abuse. Mom’s really upset because she loves her hair. She even shaved off the hair down there. Amanda Bernstein was really upset because now she says mom feels like a cactus when they make love. I was grossed out, but I’m mature for my age. We listened to Last Day of Our Acquaintance, mom’s favorite song from I Do Not Want What I Haven’t Got. It’s mom’s favorite song because she felt so different when the song ended. She felt alive in that moment. Aware of the cost of silence. When we finished shaving our heads, mom replayed Sinéad’s infamous act on SNL on YouTube. At the exact moment Sinéad tore up the picture of the pope, mom tore up a picture of the current pope. She even said fight the real enemy. I tore up a picture of mom because she’s the real enemy. (Not really. I’m silly.) But Amanda Bernstein refused to tear up anything. She just stood there in front of us in front of YouTube in front of Sinéad O’Connor in front of the picture of the pope and held up a picture of Steve. Her only son.